February 28, 2010
It has become a sad, self-perpetuating cycle. Every couple of months I pick up my copy of Moby Dick, read the first chapter, then put it down on the floor next to my bed. The next night the latest issue of The New Yorker is lying on top of it, followed shortly by older ones I haven’t completely read (which is pretty much all of them), and a small tower of magazines begins to rise. Two months later I either decide to do a little cleaning or accidentally knock over the ‘zine tower, and I am again confronted by the fat old paperback at the bottom. By this time, though, I’ve forgotten everything that happened in that first chapter, so I have to read it all over again. I should now be a renowned scholar on the first 12 pages of Melville’s alleged masterpiece. But all I would be able to say, if someone asked me what happened in that first chapter, would be: “I don’t know, not much.”
I’m not sure why I feel I have to read Moby Dick. I know English professors who have never cracked the spine on it or “Ulysses,” and they don’t seem any worse off for it. I guess when it comes right down to it, it has less to do with reading for enjoyment or becoming well-read than it does with finishing what I started. That, and I hate the way the book seems to sneer at me every time I find it at the bottom of that pile of magazines. What right does it have to mock me like that? I own it. And yet I am bothered by this. It’s almost like…an obsession.
It is time to break the cycle. Today I commit. One chapter down, 134 to go. Although now that I think of it, I should probably reread Chapter 1 just one more time.

























